city of blinding lights;

'' Till Death Do US Part"

it's not a good night tonight.
too much of catching up with the different people..
leads to too much of memories waiting to be forgotten...

suddenly, a 26 year old NS man claims knowing me.
and that was really, the beginning of my thoughts.
then, Jerry's serving the nation in coming June.
and HE'll be freed from the torture in June.
Caught up with Phebe all of a sudden...
and ended up talking about him..
she said she haven't see his gf before,
even though they were together for 4 months.
time and time, she saw him alone, playing bball, walking home.

my feelings' stirring inside my heart, making me ponder.
but i know i shouldnt be thinking and i cant be thinking.
if not i'll fall hard once again, and will never pick myself up.
though deep inside me, i really want to know the truth,
i really want to know how is he doing and is he really fine..
but i know i've to be tough and let these thoughts be thoughts.
these thoughts should never be reality, for i'll hurt myself.

the bygones should be left as bygones..
and shall not give myself false hopes.
things shall remain the way it is now..
until the day i know i'm prepared...
prepared to see him without having a mixed feelings,
prepared to see him wishing him all the best with a big big grin.

but i know, the day will not be any time soon.
for my heart is still with him..
for my love is still with him..
for my mind and soul is still with him..

but somehow, i know i couldnt deny this.
somewhere deep inside my heart,
still lies a spot for him, waiting for his return one day...

"do i still love you?" that is the question.
"yes, i will always do." and thats the answer,
since the day you've left me alone..

''Till Death Do Us Part" is not just any phrase to be said like this.
To me, it holds a deep and special meaning just for YOU and ME..

I have and I will keep my promise to you. But, will you?

posted by babies- @ 1:48:00 AM